It's been a shit week. Seriously. Worse than the time I failed economics in my first year which truly freaked me out. But enough sulking in self pity...no, I'm not done yet. My sleeping patterns are so screwed. Last Monday I went to bed at 1:30 and I swear I woke up at 3. I'm supposed to get atleast 4 hours of deep sleep everynight. I looked up some breathing exercises that are supposed to help with sleeping but I'm too impatient. Of course there is the solution of just taking a pill! But this is a last resort as they can become addictive (apparently). I should also not have caffine products after 4 o'clock. This means no coffee (which I don't drink anyway) or forms of tea (which I basically live off). I have since cut down to rougly 2-3 cups per day. I used to drink a huge mug of green tea everynight at rouhgly 9pm. Apparently green tea has equal amount or more caffine than coffee. Now, no more. I'm paranoid that despite my years of drinking green tea before I sleep that it is now keeping me up. I don't think so (after years I must be immune), but if it psychologically makes me feel slightly better then whatever. I'm also going to re join the gym. People who exercise are proven to be happier. Maybe the running will also wear me down. What makes you sleep?...
Megan Fox is apparently a cow to work with. But she's hot and I like what she's wearing because it looks so comfortable.
I am reading The Art of War. There is a section that I really just have to type out.
The enemy is the woman. Or as Van Gulik explains, "The man should defeat the enemy in the sexual battle by keeping himself under complete control so as to not emit semen while exciting the woman till she reaches orgasm and sheds her yin essence which is then absorbed by the man." This is the art of victory on the battlefield.
All's fair in love and war takes a whole different meaning here.
So I was browsing blogs and brutalturtle has a post dedicated to his 10 preferred girlfriend traits...and for fun, why not? I hope these don't across as being superficial.
1) Patience. Reason: I have a personality of a five year old when I'm tired...and when I'm awake...lol I get stressed and upset easily. I like pillow talking for a long (very long) time. When shopping I can spend hours in one store. Basically my boyfriend has to be patient or he can't date me because he would get frustrated too fast haha.
2) Mature personality. Reason: I once dated a guy (for a very short time) who was younger than me. I'm an immature person myself, yet I felt like his mother. It's just not attractive.
3) A like of discussion. Reason: I like talking - about anything really and what I like is having someone who corresponds to me. I don't like talking to brick walls.
4) Nice soft skin. Reason: I have far from perfect skin, but I remember I didn't like my face to touch my ex boyfriends face because I swear if his cheek touched mine I would get pimples. lol! Enough said!...hahah ok but seriously, I could lie in bed just stroking the face of a guy with soft smooth facial skin.
5) Reasonable height (I'm thinking 180cms+?) Reason: I don't want to be taller than my guy when I'm wearing heels.
6) Likes to eat. Reason: I don't diet, I eat continuously. I'll eat those noodles with the fried cubes of lard on it! and if the noodles don't have the fried cubes of lard I will request for some to the waiter! jk lol I remember meeting this guy who had a great personality and was pretty cute, his biggest turn off was when we went out to dinner and after we had finished he made a comment about how he was worried about the amount of calories he just gained.... are you kidding me?! needless to say we never ate together again.
7) Has a sense of style. Reason: I like to look nice, and I just think it would be nice if my partner did too. One thing that is sexy about J is that even on the days when all he wants to do is lie around the house, he still looks good in his grey Nike training clothes.
8) Isn't a stick. Reason: I see so many Asian guys who are so so skinny. It just freaks me out. I like my man to have broad shoulders and some leg muscle.
9) Isn't totally egotistic. Reason: The world doesn't and will never revolve around you. I can't stand guys who put down other people.
10) Has nice hair and shoes. Reason: To me, having your hair done right and wearing a good pair of shoes can just pull together your entire outfit. I guess this can fall under my want of a sense of style, but I like my guy to look put together.
But at the end of the day personality is the most important and if a personality just clicks with mine then this list has no meaning ha.
I like this better than the original...seriously, I just replayed it three times...
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I was browsing blogs devoted to weddings...and ohohohoh oh my gosh.... haha I'm having CJS on the soles of my shoes and J can have OJM on his.
The shot with the balloons is just so cute.
I nearly fainted when I saw this. I love this look. The slight feathered detail at the top, hugging her body in all the right ways and then flaring out yet still having a crisp freshness. She hasn't been cluttered with accessories...and her hair is just so simple...thats how I want it.
Ok well thats all for now. I think I'm going to go make myself a tea and eat some dark chocolate.
